Well, a month of eating poorly and very late nights at the office have finally caught up with me as I have a heavy cold, annoying dry cough and a temperature to boot. This is not a great start to the week.

Even though I have been sober again for a long time [this is the start of my second week], I think the illness has been giving me lucid dreams- some about work, some surreal. For example, I was pretty convinced that a cat was sitting on top of me on the bed this morning. It was so real as well- it is funny how the mind works.

Anyway, all of this could have been avoided if I had taken better care of myself, but constant skipping of breakfast, followed by a hurried lunch and then a late, measly dinner does not promote good health. I have also skipped exercise, so that I can get to work an hour earlier and try and fit some emails and other stuff into the hectic day.

But it has got me thinking about the fact that I really don't like to talk about myself. It always takes me ages to sit down and write about what I am feeling as I am not really used to it - it feels like a strange experience, and I am constantly trying to distract myself fro doing it.

For example, a second ago I decided that I needed to get dressed before I wrote it, then that I needed a cup of tea- but there is no milk, so I would have to walk to get some, and then by the time I come back I will have forgotten about writing this.

I find I am doing that quite alot recently by distracting myself and trying to avoid some key issues. For example, at work I am constantly moving about, getting water and making small talk so that I don't have to get on with the massive task that needs to be delivered tomorrow. I always hit deadlines, but it tends to be carried over into my personal time.

The main reason for this is because there is so much noise at the office- people always bustling around, people just asking if I have five minutes [which turn into twenty]. I find it hard to concentrate and things that would normally take me 40 minutes to complete end-to-end take up half a day because of distractions and small requests.

So, what am I going to do about it? I will say no to the 'five minutes', but also I will block out the surrounding noise by either working on my laptop and away from the desk area, or wear an ipod with some soothing music to get away from it all.

In the meantime I am going to concentrate on getting better and actually getting some work done- 70 hour weeks are a bad thing and you pay for it through illness.